Still in Pain

When I woke up this morning my wrists hurt. I think I slept on them wrong. Add to that the pain still in my back and legs and you have me not happy. I also had to go grocery shopping today since we had the truck. Since we have it until Tuesday morning, we are going to hit another store tomorrow. My left knee is also hurting for some unknown reason. It's not a lot of pain, but it's all over. I took a bath with Epsom salt, and then took a shower and undid all the good that the bath did me. My feet were the main reason I took the bath, since Geo decided he wanted to go to Best Buy today and get some Blu-Rays. He takes forever, and I was standing for a while. After that I did the grocery shopping, so that makes for some tired feet. I should have used Geo's bath chair in the shower, but didn't so it's my own fault my feet hurt again. My feet don't take standing very well. I haven't ever been able to stand for long times without pain, even when I was young and skinny.
I woke up this morning happy and then got depressed very quickly. I was going to eat my normal breakfast of peanut butter on a mini bagel with coffee, but didn't. I started the coffee pot, and saw some sugary cereal and decided to have a bit of that while the coffee brewed. Well, I ate the cereal and then had some coffee. I wasn't hungry after I finished my little bowl of cereal, but I had some tortilla chips and salsa anyway. I kinda binged on them. I didn't even finish my coffee. I only wanted the coffee to go with the bagel, and I didn't have the bagel. I just didn't know what to do with myself. I went to the room and went on the computer for a while. I started feeling better when Geo's dad called us about the truck and said he was on his way. It's been a mood swinging day.
I'm feeling so depressed right now and I don't know why. A couple minutes ago I was fine. I'm listening to upbeat music, and there's no reason for me to be feeling this way. Even the pain isn't that bad right now. I've been in bed on the heating pad for a while so it's kinda gone away. I just don't want to do anything. All I do is complain, anyway. I can't wait for work tomorrow. Just going to work and helping out makes me feel so good. I need to call the pharmacy and order my pills. I've been without my Depakote for a couple days. I ran out on Friday and forgot to order and get them while I was at work. Duh! That's why I've been mood swinging. I forget what my pills are for sometimes I guess. I was going up earlier, and now I'm in the downswing. I have some extra Depakote in the bottom of my pill bag that spilled earlier, and I think I'm going to take it tonight since I seem to need it. I can pick up my pills tomorrow.
Geo brought up something today that I liked. He's going to start paying for his own soda. He's going to pay for his luxury items, and I pay for mine. I don't get a lot, so it's not a big deal for me. Hopefully now that he's paying for his own stuff he will eat less of it. We did go to Wendy's today and I paid. We are going to go to the Chinese buffet tomorrow and I'm going to pay. I tend to pay for our food outings since I'm the one that wants to go. Plus, I get more money on SSDI than he gets on SSI by a couple hundred dollars. Of course, most of that goes to bills, but I still get more. I can't wait to get a job so I can have money for more things. I tend to be the responsible one with all the bills and such, and he's the one spending all his money. I'm glad we don't have a joint bank account. It's sad to say, but it's the truth.
Food today was okay. I was in range for my calories but I didn't eat enough protein and had too much fat. Considering tomorrow I'm going to go to the Chinese buffet and gorge on protein I'm not too worried. I just know to keep my calories in the morning low, but still eat. I don't want to be starving when I go. I don't want to over do it. I've just been craving Chinese food, and getting take out is as much as the buffet, so I might as well go and have a nice date with Geo than have us eating out of take out boxes. I had the cereal and chips for breakfast, Wendy's salad for lunch; and chicken nuggets with corn for dinner. I got a bunch of corn at the grocery store since I want us to start eating even more healthy. I want to add more veggies to our diet. I wanted to get some squash at the store but they didn't have any. Oh well, maybe we can look tomorrow.