STILL IN BP MODE
THIS IS FROM NATALIE'S BIRTHDAY PARTY. THE DOGS ARE ZELDA, NAT'S BABY AND YOGI, MONICA'S PUP. THE LOOK ON MY FACE TELLS YOU HOW GOOD IT WAS BUT I DID SHARE. THEY SHAMED ME INTO IT!!! LOL!!!
I AM STILL BATTLING THE BLUES. I SLEPT TIL 10 THIS MORNING. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS GOOD BUT IT ACTUALLY ISN'T. I USE MY BED AND SLEEP AS A DEFENSE MECHANISM TO AVOID THE WORLD. I HAVE A " LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE ATTITUDE"...SORRY ABOUT THE LANGUAGE. I AM SO WORRIED THAT I WILL HAVE TO TALK TO ANYONE THAT I KEEP ALL MY DOORS LOCKED WHEN I AM INSIDE AND I WILL NOT ANSWER UNLESS IT IS LIKE A DELIVERY. MY GIRLFRIEND WANTS TO VISIT, THAT WOULD BE NATALIE, BUT I AM NOT SURE IF I WANT TO TRY AND KEEP UP A CONVERSATION. I FIND IT EXHAUSTING TO FOCUS THAT HARD.
I DID GO OUT YESTERDAY AS I HAD A FEW ERRANDS THAT I HAD TO GET DONE. BUT I DID NOT DILLY DALLY, OUT, DONE AND HOME. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN ON THURSDAY IT IS MY VOLUNTEER SHIFT AT THE HOSPITAL GIFT SHOP. I SHOULD PUSH MYSELF. I CAN ALWAYS LOCK UP AND LEAVE IF I GET TOO PANICY. WE WILL SEE, LET'S JUST GET THROUGH TODAY!!
BE WELL, DEBBIE
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