Still Day 6 - climbing the walls :]

Okay, so I was fine this morning - I don't have any intention of going to the casino, so that's good, but I'm feeling so bored right now even though I have plenty to do... it's a restless feeling and I came to the site to just write because I just need to vent.  I don't think I have ever been bored before - - I 'm a very active person with a lot of different interests... anyway, to provide some background of why (besides quitting gambling) I might feel this way.  In January, I had an accident with my dog - she railroaded past me down some stone steps and I ended up losing my footing and taking a bad fall... fractured a rib and totally bruised my whole right side  I honestly thought I died because it knocked the wind our of me and I couldn't speak... Okay so I was self-treating with ice and IBUprofen and though a slow process things were getting betteer... well, I then was exposed to a worker who was ill and I picked up a cold/fever/bug, etc.,  Of course with the fractured rib coughing was tough and somehow between coughing and trying to sit up straighter in the bed, I sprained my lower back :] I had spasms in it and it was just awful.  Keep in mind, I'm not one to feel sorry for myself at all, but I must admit it was painful, especially when I couldn't get out of bed except for inching my way across the bed and hoping I didn't get hurt getting out.  It made me think of "the button" that older people get and that didn't feel good at all. :]
So anyway, since the fall, I stopped working out and had started a tap class I loved, but stopped that too... today is the first day I walked 2 miles to a DVD... I think my whole system is just recovering and basically I am feeling sorry for myself because I can't go de-stress by playing slots... it's funny to say that, because all it caused was MORE STRESS... and of course I know that, but my urges come when I want to "get away from it all" so to speak.
So there you have it - - - I know I'm on the mend and stopping is the only way through this.  Thanks for reading this - I just had to vent and I can no longer wallow in self-pity - - - as I said the other day, onward and upward.  I have no idea why the old goal below is still there - I put in in again... my goal to quit started 2/14.
That's all for now
Smokeygirl

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mrsfroggie
mrsfroggie

I\'m sorry you are in so much pain! That\'s just awful! Boredom is a huge trigger for me as well. Hopefully once you mend and back to where you can move without so much pain you can get active again and the urges will lessen. Hang in there! Try to find something to distract your mind. Peace and Love. Patty
smokeygirl
smokeygirl

Thanks so much, Patty! I am actually feeling a lot better today.
Smokeygirl