STILL DAY 52
I was on line a few minutes ago and when I looked at my bank statement I realized that the casino withdrawals on one account did not show up on the first page . . . it sounds like a little thing, but I was thrilled not to see them there since time had passed. On the other account, I did see some because it's not one I use a lot.. I was adding up the withdrawals and it honestly made me feel very sick. It's not like it's a million dollars or anything, just the fact that I kept going back and back to the machine to keep on going, trying desparately to win back. I realized how sick that really is.... it was eye opening to me and nauseating at the same time. :]
All the more reason to stay away - that little thing seemed to inspire me to keep doing what I'm doing...
Hope everyone is doing well. So many new people at this time writing in... I'm wondering what has happened to some of the older members... (in last three years)..miss their posts.
Smokeygirl
All the more reason to stay away - that little thing seemed to inspire me to keep doing what I'm doing...
Hope everyone is doing well. So many new people at this time writing in... I'm wondering what has happened to some of the older members... (in last three years)..miss their posts.
Smokeygirl
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A really sad reminder, but a good reminder. I found some old check books and added up the amount of checks I wrote and started to cry. It reinforced my recovery! Good job!! Keep it up!! Peace and Love, Patty
I used to keep track on my calender how much I won, how much I lost and was going thru some old ones the other day to throw out, (saved the pictures) and it sickened me and I knew what I was doing. I could have bought a new car with all the losses. Oh well, that is in the past and I only think about today. hugs barb