Still climbing...

Wow, it's been four months since I managed to journal.  I'm just not so good at getting around to it.  I've had a little more time this week, things are slow before the mad final rush next week at school.
My life is still messy, but I'm hanging in there.  Physically, I haven't felt well in about two months.  I'm hoping it is just stress and weather changes, but getting to the point where I may have to see the doctor and make sure nothing more serious is going on.  Emotionally, I am feeling a lot stronger.  During my brief little break here, I have been doing a lot of writing, talking and processing. 
My aunt is in ICU in the hospital.  I'm praying for her.  I wrote my brother a very long letter, which I hope will bring some understanding.  I'm getting ready to do the mid-year crack down on the kids.  It seems they are stretching their bedtime past the limits, chores and school work are moving to the back burner and it's that time.
I've had a lot of things blow up the past couple of weeks, water lines, the hatch glass in the van, Internet lines, hoses in the van.  But they are all fixed now and I'm doing my best to relax and have peace.
For the first time in years, I'm having Christmas dinner at my house and decorated the house with a tree and bows etc. for my family. I am sure Islamic scholars would have a field day with this, but with my parents health, my brother's health, I decided having a joyous time with my family was more important to me and I am of the belief that God will understand my intentions.  Already, I've seen a lot of smiles over my decorations from my family...it is quite cheerful.
I'm still climbing and hopefully I can continue into the next year.

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Karen13
Karen13

You honour God by bringing love and joy to your family.

Prayers for your aunt, and for your health x

Made me chuckle about the kids, they do like to push don\'t they? Sure you\'ll get them back on track.

And as for things blowing up, its such a nuisance and expense but at least its just things and not your relationship any more

You\'ve inspired me with your story and posts
Much love xx