STILL AWAKE ,CRIED,SCREAMED,NOW MOVING ON

WELL,JUST AS I FEARED THE STUPID SCHOOL NOW SAYS MY SON DOESNT HAVE ENOUGH CREDITS TO GRADUATE.FIRST THEY SAID HE WAS ONLY MISSING HALF A CREDIT,THEN IT TURNED INTO POSSIBLY TWO OR MORE.THEY SAT .THERE WITH THIER SMIRKS SAYING HE COULD ALWAYS GO FOR HIS GED.THEY HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET HIM TO QUIT SINCE LAST YEAR.WHAT A SCHOOL....THEY MIGHT AS WELL JUST TOLD HIM TO GO HOME THEN.OF COURSE I CRIED ALL THE WAY HOME NOT NECCESARLY BECAUSE HE WASNT GRADUATING BUT BECAUSE I BLAME MYSELF AS A MOTHER.I WAS ALWAYS WORKING ONE AND TWO JOBS TO MAKE ENDS MEET.LOTS OF HOURS AND THE NIGHT SHIFTS,BUT I STILL BLAME MYSELF FOR NOT BEING THERE TO HELP HIM LEARN.ALL DAY I JUST WISH I COULD GO BACK TO WHEN HE WAS LITTLE AND WORK MORE WITH HIM ON READING AND WRITING.WHAT THE HELL DO THE SCHOOLS REALLY DO FOR OUR KIDS ANYWAYS??????WHY CANT PARENTS GO TO WORK GUILT FREE TO PROVIDE FOR THIER FAMILIES,KNOWING THE EDUCATIONAL SYSTEM WILL DO THIER BEST.IN THIER FIRST FIVE YEARS WE LOVE ,NURTURE AND PROTECT THEM.WE TEACH THEM TO BE KIND ,SHARE AND FOLLOW THE RULES. AS SOON AS THEY RIDE THAT SCHOOL BUS AND GO TO CLASS THEY COME HOME MEAN,SAD,SWEARING AND LIKE DIFFERENT KIDS.WHY DO WE SEND THEM?MY SON HONESTLY  FEELS ALL THESE YEARS THEY HAVENT HELPED HIM ANYWAYS.HE SAYS HE STILL FEELS LIKE A KINDERGARDNER.HE CAN BARELY READ OR WRITE,THE SCHOOLS HAVE SIMPLY PASSED HIM ON .,AND NOW ARE LITERLY THROWING HIM OUT.NOW THAT I HAVE PULLED MYSELF TOGETHER TOMMAROW MY FIRST CALL WILL BE TO REQUEST HE BE TAUGHT AT HOME,BY THE SCHOOL.IF THIS IS NOT AN OPTION THEN THE HELL WITH THE SCHOOL SYSTEM!!!1MY SON WANTS A JOB CLEANING FACTORIES THAT IS DECENT PAY SO I WILL DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO HELP HIM GET THAT JOB.THEN HE WILL SIGN UP FOR AN ADULT READING COURSE.HE IS TO EMBARRASSED TO PRACTICE AT HOME IN FRONT OF HIS SIBLINGS BUT HE HAS IMPROVED HIMSELF BY USEING THE COMPUTER AND TEXTING ON HIS PHONE.SO, I HAVE SOME WHAT EXCEPTED  I CANNOT CHANGE ALL THE PRECIOUS YEARS THAT HAVE PASSED BUT FROM THIS DAY FORWARD I WILL WORK VERY HARD TO HELP MY SON BE A PRODUCTIVE AND PROUD INDIVIDUAL.I LOVE MY KIDS WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND SOUL AND THEY ARE THE ONLY REASON I AM ALIVE.......THANKS TO EVERYONE AT DS FOR MAKING ME BECOME STRONG AGAIN.