still angry and cry a little too.

I have been very angry because my husband left me all alone. I have roomates that some days I talk to them very rude and I cannot help it. I am scared for my future I don't know what is in store for me all I know is I want to wake up and see my husband next to me telling it is all ok that he is here. My grieveing is hurting me all the time. I just wish the pain would stop and I want my husband back!!

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drew4lostluv
drew4lostluv

Your loss is very much like mine as u know. I still have days like this but I do see glimpses of happiness in my future. We r both new to this and I\'ve heard it could take years for us to even come close to feeling normal again. This is a hard journey you have to take. I am in the process of self discovery now. I am learning who I really am. I have learned that I enjoy doing things that I never thought I would. I think maybe you should go out and do something. I joined a social group and we do a whole bunch of things like going to the movies, kayaking, zip lining, and a whole bunch of other fun things. Know that he would want you to go out and have fun every once and a while to help take your mind off things. I know I haven\'t really messaged you that much or posted that many comments lately but I will try to do more I am glad you r my friend
drew4lostluv
drew4lostluv

There are other events that members of my social group attend, like musicals and painting classes.
kjbmay
kjbmay

So sorry! I know just how you feel. I want my Scott back but it will never be. It\'s been a horrible few days. No day is great but some are worde than others.
One thing I learned no one knows what the future holds.
I just want the ache to stop the loning for something that will never be again at least here on earth.
Kathy
Girldawg1
Girldawg1

I think it\'s a normal part of the emotions we feel. We run thru all different kinds and degrees of emotions. I know I get angry, sometimes even at my husband for leaving, as if he could DO something about it! But mostly I just get angry at being left alone, and I often think \"what\'s the point here?\" I try not to think much into the future - nothing beyond today.
Sammantha71
Sammantha71

All of you thank you for your posts. If you look up the steps of grieveing the second step is anger. As for getting out drew I get out during the day I go out with my dogs, but thank you all for the advice.