Still sad
I am still sad. I am so depressed I can't eat so today I felt light headed and I decided to have a small dniner and now feel sick in my stomach which is why I am not eating in the first place. I know the future is bleak for me and I just know with my luck I will live to be 100. I can't find joy in anything any more. I look at people and animals around me and I just see sadness and a bad future. I will lose my job soon and there are none and there is no money n my future. What becomes of old woman with no money. I can't even begin to thnik positive when it is really so bad for me constantly. I pray and pray and have in the past and it seems like God has abandoned me. At least if there was a glimmer of hope. One good thing. I see my family and my cats and know that they will get old and sick and die. Even children make me sad because I do not see a good future for them. Life to me is so sad. I don't understand why we are here. There has to be good stuff sometimes. There never is.
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I hope tomorrow is better for you. How long have you been feeling this way? It really sounds like deep depression. I think you should see a Dr about antidepressants. Sometimes you can\'t cure depression on your own. It\'s a sign of strength to seek help. I\'ll say a prayer for you tonight.
I have been feeling this way for weeks now. Ever since I found out my job is ending and there will be no unemployment. I still feel sick from eating last night. I am sving money as much as I can and hope to see the doctor after work is done because I am in no shape to look for work and everyone tells me there are no jobs. I think I will see the doctor when my job ends but I won\'t be able to afford the antidepressants probably. If I knew the future was brighter I wouldn\'t care but everything is a worry. Thank you for the prayers. Lord knows I need them.
Still so incredibly sad. I am eating more. It just sits in my belly and makes me feel sick. I hate life, I don\'t understand why everyone else seems to think it is so great and why they want to live to be 100. I hate when people say life is short. To me it is so impossibly long. Every day is like an eternity in hell. The only thing that is short about it is the time between one disaster after another. Sleep is too short even if I sleep 12 hours. And time with my cats is too short. But other than that each day is torture. I pray and ptay for relief, for something good to come my way but it doesn\'t and I am so afraid. I just don\'t get it.