Staying with my sister
;I have to stay with my sister overnight because of her doctor saying she shouldn't stay alone at night. She had stayed alone for four days before she had her doctor's appointment and this doctor said different than everyone else that had seen her.
So They need to find someone to stay with her. But first they have to find out how many hours her state care providers can give her before the social security people can know how many they can provide for her over night. This means waiting for government bureaucracy to make up their minds and let people that can do anything about it know. So, having no one else that can do it, I have to stay with her at night.
It is getting tedious. I spent 10 days before they decided she could stay on her own sleeping over there. Then after four days it has now been 9 days. I'm getting tired of it. I miss my own bed and my own TV. I am going home during the day if there isn't something that I have to stay there to do. So I get to be home for about half the day.
I also have to deal with the sick parents, the finances, my brother bothering me, phone calls about all kinds of things, many of which I really don't know what to do about and just make me anxious.
I don't know how long it will take till I can get back to setting my own schedule and be able to start looking for work again. I have to still deal with my parents finances and what can be done so that they don't lose everything they have worked for and wanted to have their children to inherit rather than sell it to pay for their rest home care. If there is anything to be done to save it I will. But my mother has to agree to it and she has already stopped the one plan I had found to help.
Forward into the next week. Hope is still with me that it may all work out in the end and I can have some semblance of freedom and self determined routine and life and not have to deal with everyone else and their problems, worries, troubles and issues.
I am really pretty self reliant and can take care of myself. Tho I need a job or the family pre inheritence to survive. I can manage on a very low budget and behappy. But I am not as good at taking care of others. My hope is to be able to get back to my own care and not have to worry about others. This may not be possible until after my parents are gone and we have whatever inhreitance is left.
With minimal finances trho either inheritance or employment, and my own SSI in the future, I think I can get along but If I have to deal with the rest of my family and their problems my life is going to be filled with anxiety. I'm used to once every couple weeks feeling bad, having soem anxiety and maybe a small panic attack. I have learned to manage it. but having it every other day if not every day is really taxing me. I pray my helath doesn't deteriorate because of it. Beyond the headaches and nervous stomach I hope that the continued anxiety doen'st cause soemthing more permanent.
Thanks for readin, commenting.
Just being able to vent to cyberspace helps even if no one ever sees it. I can imagine that there are others reading and caring and sending good vibes or prayers even if they never comment.
Sometimes, delusion can be a good thing.
So They need to find someone to stay with her. But first they have to find out how many hours her state care providers can give her before the social security people can know how many they can provide for her over night. This means waiting for government bureaucracy to make up their minds and let people that can do anything about it know. So, having no one else that can do it, I have to stay with her at night.
It is getting tedious. I spent 10 days before they decided she could stay on her own sleeping over there. Then after four days it has now been 9 days. I'm getting tired of it. I miss my own bed and my own TV. I am going home during the day if there isn't something that I have to stay there to do. So I get to be home for about half the day.
I also have to deal with the sick parents, the finances, my brother bothering me, phone calls about all kinds of things, many of which I really don't know what to do about and just make me anxious.
I don't know how long it will take till I can get back to setting my own schedule and be able to start looking for work again. I have to still deal with my parents finances and what can be done so that they don't lose everything they have worked for and wanted to have their children to inherit rather than sell it to pay for their rest home care. If there is anything to be done to save it I will. But my mother has to agree to it and she has already stopped the one plan I had found to help.
Forward into the next week. Hope is still with me that it may all work out in the end and I can have some semblance of freedom and self determined routine and life and not have to deal with everyone else and their problems, worries, troubles and issues.
I am really pretty self reliant and can take care of myself. Tho I need a job or the family pre inheritence to survive. I can manage on a very low budget and behappy. But I am not as good at taking care of others. My hope is to be able to get back to my own care and not have to worry about others. This may not be possible until after my parents are gone and we have whatever inhreitance is left.
With minimal finances trho either inheritance or employment, and my own SSI in the future, I think I can get along but If I have to deal with the rest of my family and their problems my life is going to be filled with anxiety. I'm used to once every couple weeks feeling bad, having soem anxiety and maybe a small panic attack. I have learned to manage it. but having it every other day if not every day is really taxing me. I pray my helath doesn't deteriorate because of it. Beyond the headaches and nervous stomach I hope that the continued anxiety doen'st cause soemthing more permanent.
Thanks for readin, commenting.
Just being able to vent to cyberspace helps even if no one ever sees it. I can imagine that there are others reading and caring and sending good vibes or prayers even if they never comment.
Sometimes, delusion can be a good thing.
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