starting the day with sunshine

I woke up this morning at my usual 'get ready for work' time but then

decided to get back to sleep! I woke up later at quarter to 5 and then started my day.

I made coffee and watched the news in bed. I found myself itching in my skin,

aggression was really building up and initially I felt as though a kind of 'oh woe is me'.

But the only thing I really had to do was give myself direction.....and I felt

sad at that task initially as I was blinded to the reason and remedy - but then realized what it was - and so I decided to cheerfully 

employ my energy towards building a morning.... I was going big picture (what would be

the best thing to do??) about things,

when I was sad, but then turned to 'cheerful in the moment' at the start of

my day. I just decided to go forth with positivity! 

I definitely think there is a communication flaw within me between my energy

and consciousness at moments like these (that cause the confusion) - but I am grateful for the opportunity to learn.

I hope I don't seem like an a**hole - I don't mean to be - much of the time 

there is something in me that is so denying to myself too - Sometimes

you just need to push forward and do what's right in front of you

and build onto the day!