Starting over again

Today I ate so much junk food it's not funny. I had a Whopper Jr and chicken nuggets from Burger King, then 2 pieces of stuffed crust pizza and a bag of ramen. I've just been hungry all day and didn't have too much access to healthier foods. I threw up a bit, too. I'm just scared that I'm going to start on the road to bulimia again. I felt so sick that I threw up. I half forced it, half not. I felt better after I threw up and then ate the ramen. I'm still a bit hungry but I don't want to eat any more. I've already gone way over my calories for the day. I guess I just have to watch myself for now. I was going to exercise by washing the car at the in-laws but we got caught up in the football game that it was almost dark (and it looked like rain) so we just will do that another day. I don't have work tomorrow, so I can do laundry and stuff then.

I'm doing okay today mood wise. I didn't eat out of emotion, I ate because food was there. I got 11 hours of sleep last night with no nap. I know if I was home I would have taken a nap. I'm not too tired right now and it's almost 10. I hope I'm not going hypomanic. That would suck. Geo also read me an article today that kinda sent me down about this anesthesiologist who was abusing patients during surgery and it was a trigger to me. I felt better after a couple minutes, but it could still be lingering around in the back of my head.

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ann54
ann54

maybe the feeling of needing or wanting to throw up was because of the food you ate. you havent been eating like that in a long time, maybe the greasyness in the food upset your stomach. i hope that is what it was, i dont want you going down that road again. some days are like that, you are hungry for no reason, just am and it was ok, you will get back on track.i think it is great you were busy and didnt nap, i understand that, if i am home whether it is a work day or not, i nap. hope today is beter for you, hugssss
Larissa238
Larissa238

I hope I don\'t feel like that again... Just bloated and greasy. Not fun.
ZECILKL
ZECILKL

I agree with ann54. I hope all is better today.
I get hungry days too. it\'s like i can\'t get enough food. sometimes i think i\'m eating out of stress but not sure as the food tastes so good. So, I\'ll say it\'s 1/2 hunger some of the times and 1/2 stress.
good2go2001
good2go2001

I know for me BK is a definite not good thing....... i get sick everytime i eat anything fast food. I do agree with Ann above i think our bodies get use to having healthy things and then something else gets eaten and its our bodies way of saying this is not ok food. I dont handle grease or gluten now that ive been restricting for so long. Hugggzzz hope you can get somethin healthy to eat soon and you will feel much better HUGZZZ
lucylui
lucylui

One day, one moment at a time. That\'s the way I have to look at it. Some days I can\'t seem to get enough either. I\'m grateful that I don\'t have to live like that all the time anymore. Maybe just a reminer of how far you\'ve come.