Starting better self care

I haven't taken very good care of myself for many years.  I was too busy taking care of others.  I think that's where some of my guilt comes from.  My mom had me do a lot chores.  She hardly did anything especially after she became an alcoholic.  Every day they would fight.  I hated that.  After awhile I voluntarily started doing the housework to try and keep the peace.

My parents were big on shaming.  It went this way.  My mom and I would get into a fight.  That evening mom would tell my dad and make the fight sound like it was my fight.  There would be a big argument and they would tell me all about what a horrible person I was.

There was a lot of criticism in the house even over small stuff.  I figure they thought someone being correct was more important than good mental health.

I going to work on fixing this damage.  That and therapy.  I have to remember that I'm a worthwhile person.