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So i've read many good things about journalling so i guess i'll give it a go. 

I don't really know what people journal about. My day would be a good place to start i guess. I worked all day. I have been nauseous, lightheaded and have had a headache all day. I'm starting to think it's a side effect of my medication for my back. Its an anti-depressant that kills nerve pain. But i react poorly to anti-depressants all the time. So i should have seen this coming. My pain is better but this constant feeling of blah is getting in the way of work and university. A part of me thinks maybe the pain has jusy gone away on its own and it's not this pain killer. But i don't want to stop this med and be in as much pain as i was before. I hate medication. 

Speaking of which, i've been pondering what would happen if i stopped taking my anti-anxiety pill. I wanna be able to cope without it. It's not because i'm ashamed, with my mental health record, i'm long past shame, but i feel my body become dependant. And i really don't like that feeling. 

Besides that, today i've been thinking lots about money. And my lack of it. I work full time, i should be able to afford my rent and groceries, but it seems like lately it's one or the other. Maybe i should move in with a roommate, but that went so bad in the past. Getting a second job would be nice, but no one seems to want to hire me. Idealy, i'd just make more money in my current job. 

Well that's it for my day really.