Sports.

Although I have been massively collapsing from the inside out emotionally, physically I have been in pretty awesome shape. In the last 8 games I've played in I have scored 11 goals, and have 3 assists. Before this I was playing really off, but I have regained my confidence on the field. For a first time in a very long while I am pretty proud of myself, and now...my team-mates want me to take most of the shots which is fine, but now I am guarded well by defenders, and most of the time I am double-teamed by two guys. My coach has been really satisfied with my playing, and I just hope to continue to do good work because I am not in a very good place emotionally, and most people noticed how much I don't associate well with others being very distant / quiet, and I'm just very odd I suppose. I guess it's just hard for me to adjust. On a side note I have been talking to this girl, but she lives so far away, and when I get a message from her, I am really happy, but I never ever hear from her only literally sometimes maybe two or three texts, and I am fairly sure I am just a game. I know things will most likely never happen, and I know you're not supposed to force relationships, just let it come to you, but seriously how long do I have to wait? & I am so alone, and it really sucks. I like her, but wow how unrealistic & fake. Things suck outside of sports...my social life is basically non-exsistant. It feels like everyone hates me or if I get to know someone well...they are for sure leaving. I don't know what I am going to do very sad.