Spiritual Humour ?
I know that I've developed spiritual beliefs in the last 5 years or so; probably the only reason I'm still around.
But in all seriousness, we spend so much time TRYING to problem solve our symptoms, manage our emotions, etc.. I get so fed up sometimes and just feel like I'm going to burst!!
Most days I think, "yah, it's a good thing I believe in karma or an after life, that improves the quality of my life experience"
However, today, I feel like "after-life,FORGET IT!! I'm too damn tired. I'm also,SCARED SHITLESS, to have another existence !!
If my present experience is any indication of what a future life would be like, YOU CAN SHOVE IT !!
How could I possibly be enamoured with the idea of other lifetimes? Sure there was a time I was kind of happy, but there's been way too much trauma sprinkled on this mother, super-woman effigy.
A great irony is that the more I grow spiritually, the more liberated I feel to let out my true feelings, of anger, grief and just plain displeasure with all the strain, fear, anxiety and confusion.
Its like, before my spiritual awakening , I was mad at God, hated religious hypocrites, angry that I was born, and just generally grumpy about any type of suffering. AFTER my spiritual awakening I find I am mad at God, hate religious hypocrites, angry that I was born and generally grumpy about any type of,suffering.
Now,THAT'S my kind of religion!!
But in all seriousness, we spend so much time TRYING to problem solve our symptoms, manage our emotions, etc.. I get so fed up sometimes and just feel like I'm going to burst!!
Most days I think, "yah, it's a good thing I believe in karma or an after life, that improves the quality of my life experience"
However, today, I feel like "after-life,FORGET IT!! I'm too damn tired. I'm also,SCARED SHITLESS, to have another existence !!
If my present experience is any indication of what a future life would be like, YOU CAN SHOVE IT !!
How could I possibly be enamoured with the idea of other lifetimes? Sure there was a time I was kind of happy, but there's been way too much trauma sprinkled on this mother, super-woman effigy.
A great irony is that the more I grow spiritually, the more liberated I feel to let out my true feelings, of anger, grief and just plain displeasure with all the strain, fear, anxiety and confusion.
Its like, before my spiritual awakening , I was mad at God, hated religious hypocrites, angry that I was born, and just generally grumpy about any type of suffering. AFTER my spiritual awakening I find I am mad at God, hate religious hypocrites, angry that I was born and generally grumpy about any type of,suffering.
Now,THAT'S my kind of religion!!
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Sounds like you\'re still a bit in the middle of the road about Spiritual things, Pouty. It\'s totally understandable. We all go through periods of time where we search the Spiritual. We are not just blobs that landed on the planet by accident. I don\'t believe that. I\'m not going to preach here. I just believe that without my firm faith in God that He will do as He said and keep me under His wings, I would have given up many times during the eight years I have been sick with CFS. My faith keeps me going! I do not feel alone or abandoned by God, nor am I angry that I am sick. Not anymore. I think we reach a place of acceptance. I just know that everyone has something!!! I\'m thankful I do not have cancer....for example. I wouldn\'t want to have anyone else\'s illness because it might easier to deal with! For me, I believe that God is in control, because I asked Him to be. He gives me the grace and strength to deal with what I am afflicted with, and I look forward to an afterlife where my body will be whole again.
I hope you can find peace within your spirit, Pouty. My spiritual life has been so enriched since I\'ve been sick. I have much to be thankful for!!! xoxo : )
Sometimes, very rarely, I have these very real, pervasive dreams. In one of them, I was a man who killed two other men, and then lived the rest of his life in misery, being eaten by his conscience. The dream literally had the length and weight of a lifetime inside it.
After I woke up, I felt this message - \"And that\'s why you don\'t remember your other lives!\"
Simply put, we get a clean slate every time, because otherwise we wouldn\'t be able to handle hundreds of years of baggage. We are more than these individuals we project ourselves into.
Let it out .. when we become aligned to a religion we tend to forget that it is OK to experience negative emotion. Job cursed God, over and over.. but he resolved also to trust God and remain true to Him. My spiritual journey does add some peace to this journey, as the pieces of my life fall apart its nice to simply be able to hand it over and say God you know best. Remember also, that as bad as this is .. there are so many conditions that are much, MUCH worse. And if its not illness its war, or its crime, or its love or its betrayal .. there are countless reasons for life to be miserable, your happiness will come down to how you choose to handle what life throws at you. Hope you find your peace...
We are all destined to suffer in this material world in these temporary bodies.From birth to old age to death.No one escapes this .Spiritual awakening as you expressed pouty is the knowledge and realization that we are not this body, but spirit souls, full of knowledge, bliss ,and eternality.We are covered over by the illusory energy of this material world and trying to enjoy separately without God.Our eternal constitutional position is in a loving relationship with God.We have free choice, but we are not in control, that is obvious.There is both happiness and distress for every living entity due to the physical body and association with material matter.So the purpose of life is to rediscover our spiritual identity and reestablish our lost relationship with God, the supreme.God is omnipotent, unlimited, the origin of all, the maintainer of everything and in the hearts of all living entities. The highest relationship we can have is with God.Our suffering in this world is to remind us that this is not our original home and we are not this body.Sorry pouty, if that was a bit full on, it\'s the only thing that makes sense to me.