spending money with a condition

I must say it's lovely and a curative to spend money sometimes.

It really puts me back into a sense of well being and joyful and adds

something to look forward to- it can be a false sense of freedom

to live with my appetite fulfilled in any direction...But I also have to say it can be quite

an addictive type of venture. The blithe spending can escalate into a delusion and

have me thinking of spending to my heart's content. Left checked it

can create quite a problem.

I know the vast majority of people are pinching their pennies and

stretching their dollars - and I also know that ocassional big spending

can be quite a 'flex' in the presence of other people - and it speaks

of a good self management if it can be covered - but also it's fllagrant moves like this that  belies

a kind of foolishness that I must admit I am done before.

It's great to spend and it helps me connection with my imagination - and ideal happy self -

but it's understood I have to wear both the business and creative hats - 

and mitigate this habit as it's eventually self destructive and can 

lead to debt.