Specialist appt

Well I got a call last week with an appointment to finally get into the orthopedic surgeon about my back/sciatica. Unfortunately its not until April 2011, that s how long it takes around here. With any luck I will be feeling much better by then but I'm not hopeful. This week is bad. I thought I would try to go to the office for a 1/2 day but that wont' happen. I went in yesterday for a 15 min. meeting and that was all I could handle. I don't know how I will continue to work that long. I have an appt to see my family doctor next week. I plan to ask for either a different medicaiton or a dosage increase. Will also ask about other treatments that might help. Physiotherapy didn't do much and I just can't afford to keep going. Some days I just want to lay down and give up... wave the white flag and surrender - to what I don't know 
Yesterday I was in so much pain I just wanted to cry and none of the meds I have were doing anything. I took a super hot bath which felt good at the time but didn't provide any real relief. I did my stretches, which hurt so I had to do them more gently than normal even. I just don't know what else to do and today is starting to feel the same, been in pain since I got up. sometimes a couple glasses of wine helps but I'm tired of drinking, it just doesn't appeal to me these days. I really hope my doctor can recommend something next week.