Sorry Its Been So Long

Dear Josh, I want to tell you that I love you and miss you everyday that rolls by.  I am so sorry I have not wrote to you in a while.  There is not an excuse I can think of, but I rather you be here so I can talk to you instead of typing a letter.  What I have been up to you ask?  Well your aunt Wanda and I have joined CrossFit Training.   I can hear already.  What is that mama?  Well it is a very high endrance training.  From push-ups, weights, bench pressing, you name it Josh we do it.  I know you can't believe it.  But it is a way that I pass my time since you are not here to share my time with, plus waiting on your daddy to get home.  Christmas Eve was 3 years since you had your accident.  Not one tear shed that day.  Everyone came to the house, yes Logan came.  She misses you so much too.  She came by a couple of weeks ago.  She and I sat in your room and just talked.  I tried to tell her she is young and she will find the right guy for her one day.  Her life has to go on too.  Your daddy and I put our first real Christmas Tree since you died.  It was your tree.  I even found a peace sign tree topper.  (I will post a pic so you can see it.)  We even bought each other gifts.  We had not done that since you died.  That to me was to big steps for us.  Christmas Day passed.  No tears cried. No eating lunch with Granny this year.  She is in a rest home and didn't want to come home.  Another different Christmas.  New Years Eve was my crashing point. I went to visit you and saw where one of your friends left you something.  It was a picture of that gaint you put everywhere.  They miss you too.  I lost it.  Well today is the 13th of the new year and I am hanging in there.  I think am doing pretty good.  But not saying what might hit me in the next 10 minutes and send me on that path again.  Well I guess I better get to work.  Just know you are my angel and always will be my son and my friend.  I love you with all of my being.  Love, Mama

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Welcome back
annsullivan
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Have a gentle day...
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Nice to hear from you. Enjoy what you can. Love and hugs Cathy
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hey honey! thinking of you! {{{hugs}}} love you!