Sorry I didn't come back last night...
I didn't go to sleep at 8 like I wanted... I lay there for a while and then got up. I was moody, so I didn't want to update my journal. Last night I called my little brother for his birthday, and my stepmom answered. I'm nervous since now she's going to call me at 9 tonight to catch up. She's going to ask me all these religious questions that I don't have the answer to. If she finds out I'm an atheist she won't let me see my little brother. Or if she finds out that Geo and I don't have a marriage license (it's just a piece of paper. Geo is my husband I don't care what the state says). I just hope it goes well.
I slept all day today for the most part. Or should I say stayed in bed. I got up at 1 pm and I was tired, but I made myself do it anyway. I lay back down at around 2:30 but couldn't sleep. I called people on the phone and stuff until 4 when Geo came in to lay down. We were reading funny articles on the computer, and when he left I finally got about an hour nap in. I'm tired now, but I want to wait up for my stepmom's call so I can just get it over with. The last time I saw her was at my Nana's burial. One of her first questions was "When was the last time you went to church?" so I know what's coming tonight. I think I will just tell her that I'm wary of churches since I left the cult, and that although I don't read my Bible as much as I should (yes, even atheists should read the Bible to know it for debate), I do read it and other religious texts. I hope that satisfies her.
I slept all day today for the most part. Or should I say stayed in bed. I got up at 1 pm and I was tired, but I made myself do it anyway. I lay back down at around 2:30 but couldn't sleep. I called people on the phone and stuff until 4 when Geo came in to lay down. We were reading funny articles on the computer, and when he left I finally got about an hour nap in. I'm tired now, but I want to wait up for my stepmom's call so I can just get it over with. The last time I saw her was at my Nana's burial. One of her first questions was "When was the last time you went to church?" so I know what's coming tonight. I think I will just tell her that I'm wary of churches since I left the cult, and that although I don't read my Bible as much as I should (yes, even atheists should read the Bible to know it for debate), I do read it and other religious texts. I hope that satisfies her.
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that is to bad about the sleep, I wonder what will work to get you to sleep earlier? I will have to think. your step mom sounds awful, that is very nervy of her to ask you such questions, it is none of her business. I think you have come up with the best answer, does she know about the cult? if it doesn\'t satisfy her, walk away. hugsss
I hope you can get back on a good sleep pattern. You did pick a good answer for your step mom. How old is your brother?
I\'m sorry you\'re having trouble sleeping, and that the withdrawals are difficult. I agree with Zee that you have a good answer for your stepmom. It can be so difficult trying not to \"rock the boat\" with relatives, while remaining true to yourself. Wishing you the best, and I hope you feel better soon! Hugs, Judy
what cult?
that is really common here. people say they are married all the time, and they are living together. or they say its their fiance and they are boyfrienda and girlfriend. there is \"common law marriage\" in most states if you live together more than 7 years you can sue for palimony...but florida doesn\'t have that. i had a jerk ask me for money when we broke up after a few months! when i was a teenager. definitely someone looking for a man to support him, even though he was a \"man\".
i take multi vitamin at night and it makes me sleep - can\'t sleep without it actually. xxoo