Sorrow seems to never end

I'm grieving still. I'v cut a few times. I miss my sister so much. She was my only connection to the outside world. I am a recluse and she would come by to check on me during the week. She was the only one who could get me out of the house. 
I've been praying and seeing my therapist, but she is out of town this week. I feel really alone. I have been journaling and coloring to pass the time. Unfortunately, I'm addicted to tv. I just want to escape and live vicariously through the people on tv. However, when it comes to going to bed I seem to feel very unfinished, because I've done nothing in the day time. I think my boring days are starting to get to me. Hopefully, some good changes will happen in the future.