Soooo tired right now.

I feel very overwhelmed and anxious..For no real reason..  overall nothing is going on, same stuff I deal with daily from my mom, but nothing major.. No big arguments.. nothing bad really happening.. I stayed up all night playing games with my sister. Over an hr looking for a cactus on a game.. was pretty messed up lol  but nothing bad has really happened... And I feel like I can barely breathe.. And I feel stupid for feeling like this without a good reason which upsets me more and it just gets worse... Ugh.. I just wish I had someone here to talk to and lay with until I fall asleep.. I need a break from family, but I really really don't want to be alone... Never thought I'd miss my ex til now... Only because he always talked to me until I fell asleep so I wouldn't feel alone... That was one of the few good things about that relationship.. I feel soo alone lately.. I don't feel like I'm completely there when I talk to people.. It's starting to cause me to lose some people who were pretty good friends... And I am trying to fix things, but I just cant seem to get better.. I'm still trying to keep a positive attitude though.. I keep telling myself if I just think positively, breathe, and smile, then everything will get better... And I do believe that.. Even though I feel hopeless soo much, and I feel alone and broken.. I believe with everything in me that things WILL get better... All I gotta do is focus on the good and put in the effort to make things better... But it seems like the more I try, the more I just get knocked right back down... Maybe it's just the lack of sleep talking..... idk.. All I know right now is I need sleep... and a hug... : (