son left for a few days

well, he left with a new girl he has been talking to online. hes supposed to be back tommorow night. i realy hope he has a good time. i know i am. boyfreind coming over tonight to spend the night. trying to clean up so he will feel comfortable. its so dirty here. i dont know were to begin. this horrible deppression has realy taking its toll on me lately. it would take a week to realy get it done good. i hope he does spend the night. last time, i woke and he was gone with no note or anything. that kinda hurt me, maybe he will stay tonight. hoping to have a realy great time. we both need it so bad. ive been exersising so maybe the sex will be better. i have moore energy. i know it hasnt been very good for a while. i havnt realy been trying, since i gained all this weight, i dont realy care about it anymoore. hope tonight will be better. i hate to keep dissapointing him so much. oh well got to go and prepare. will write about it tommorow if i have the time....