somewhere in the middle

I was going to come to my journal just now and write 'half an entry' -

my Dad used to use the turn the phrase "half an answer" which meant

along the lines of "have a question... create an answer as well"

I found when I tossed my precaution to the wind in order to take my walk

a little while ago - my spirits rose and I felt great!

I came home and had lunch.. reallly wolfed it down and then suddenly felt so

untethered and I started to crash emotionally - feeling so aimless...meaningless.

Now I'll say that - maybe we can't always toss our concerns to the winds - it's good

to let ourselves be free sometimes - but perhaps we also have to remember to own our emotional 

states as well. Be self responsible as boring as that may seem - it's really all I've got right now.

I started to see all the things wrong with my life and my appetite was yearning - but

I'll keep a lid on it - and use my enthusiasm for walking, like I did today, help motivate me

on future jaunts. Gosh I wish I didn't have to do this but so it goes...planning for life can 

seem exciting - but then you have to bring yourself along the way as well.

Peace and hugs! I go back to work tomorrow!

xo

Mark