sometimes you don't know until you do it
I woke up this morning, feeling very very hesitant about which
direction to go in. I knew that I wanted to make coffee and then
I knew I would take a shower. And so I did. I can just be so myopic
sometimes. So I was thinking about what to eat. I indulged in something
very very rich - and now I feel sick to my stomach. LOL in hindsight I can see
how this would not have been a good idea - but I guess that's why hindsight is 20/20.
Anyways, I was recoiling from writing this, sheepish about committing to writing this,
but I need to 'get it out' and move on to other things with the day.
I have to think about things in terms of how to take care of myself rather than
just indulgence (ugg I feel so queasy now) and so 'taking care' will be my thinking
cap.. and my raison d'etre at least for today. I don't need to go to extremes and have
a mission every day - but perhaps the overiding mission - to remember and come back to -
is to take care of myself and my day....self responsible...but there's still time to smell the roses
every now and then.
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Hola Mark good morning,
I like when you talk about smelling the roses, because it reminded me of the kind of self care I need to do today that maybe is something like smelling the roses. Sorry lol I hope that made sense, sometimes I don’t know if I make sense.
You seem like you do a good job of taking care of you & your kitty :)
Big hug <3
Thanks so much lil!!! Have a good day ! Peace.
sometimes i guess right, but i NEVER KNOW until i actually do it. ya never can tell when the conditions are gonna change, turning yesterday's given into today's bad idea.
i still believe you need to awaken your sense of adventure. those unscheduled hours can lead to surprising discoveries when you just let yourself wander with a sense of adventure. even familiar turf can hold surprises when you are open to adventure.
not all who wander are lost. ~gypsy proverb
Thanks Arfie. I was feeling a mix of a lot of feelings and confused so I lit a candle and just wrote some emails.
My sense of adventure right now is focused on inner space. I’m looking forward to going back to work tomorrow and the opportunity to keep busy and make some $. The world has so many things that can tug me in their direction. I’m just going to focus on my own behavior so I can get through this alive.
Thanks for your message and encouragement. You rock!!!!! xx