sometimes it's like mark 'contra mundi'

it really feels like 'that' at certain moments - just from the weakness that I feel inside

and the projections I start to make about how people feel about me.

I was that way at work for a while today - but decided to get good work done -

and try and believe that 'everyone was not thinking the same thing about me' lol

imagine that - such self centeredness from me- and I kind of giggled and brushed it

off and just focused on doing a good as possible job.

I still feel kind of weak right now, here at home, and I am just kind of trying to own

it - while doing the little chores that need to be done, also take a nap and convert my perspective

from one of weakness to making plans for myself for the rest of the day and week.

It's weird how my 'illness/mental health challenges' can really consume my day -

but it's not as bad as it used to be. I've therapy in a little while and then I may splurge again

and get coffee. Maybe I'll just take a walk to the mailbox.