something snapped inside me

I was doing my morning 'take care of things.'

I got up and decided to go for coffee.

I'll go for groceries soon too.

Was feeling fragile and questioning of so much of things

and felt frozen in the moment... like aware of myself but

the hurdle to do something with my day was big..

Then I wondered why I couldn't take the next step to

dig into life...I pushed myself

and then something snapped in my head..literally.

I realized what I need to focus on... all I need to focus on..

is building a life for myself... and taking care of that charge is

what I need to do - 

I feel like I am bleeding inside for some weird reason

but I'll continue to just take care - and that's all I need to focus

on... therapy at 1115a today - I am glad of that - and then

dinner with the parents this evening. 
Keep building, keep on keeping on...

I know my posts are weird but thanks for reading

making sense of them here is a godsend.

peace and good kharma...Mark