something my last post inspired

In my last post I wrote how I always need a project - and that's part of this 'go go' energy that I have - always working within - and knowing that nature, it makes sense to me and I can cope with it/deal with it and work things out for myself so that I can provide - 

but I realize as well, that part of my trying to understand things and the way they work

and systematize things in my work and daily life..

I think it has much to do with creating predictability - and familiarity...

I know for some reason - when it comes time to venture out into an unknown situation (I am stil adventurous sometimes)

but much of the time it's a hurdle that I am learning to put in it 'proper place' - I can deal with new things - there may be

a 'getting up to speed' process but I can deal with the unknown... and as I have grown older I have learned to have much more respect and humility for making choices in life.

Anyways, patterning life I have realized in part is the way I have dealt with the unknown and all that squeamishness that goes with it and that's OK. It makes sense.