social anxiety I guess it is

I think I get so nervous talking to people in person because I think I have a hard time

relating to the ideals in my head that signal a sense of safety - I think I just gotta relax

and be myself - and not get hung up on folks being perfect or me being perfect.

I don't know if it makes sense - but someone said to me once when I was wigging out about

a detail - he suggested that "just don't care so much." It makes sense.

Just came from a walk to the mail box. Saw a neighbor walking her dogs so I decided to say hi.

She didn't say anything - but she smiled and I pet her dogs who were cute french bulldogs.