so unhappy
my life has changed so much since I lost my baby..reality is setting in and I look at my life and now wonder just what the hell I'm doing...I am not happy..I'll be honest sometimes I have wondered why I am here and always it comes back to my 2 boys and one has left me and I got another and am thinking how trapped in this mess I created..I am so unhappy in my life right now and all I have is my 2 pups..I dont know what to do, where to turn..what a friggin mess, I have no support in my life just when I am here..thats where I get compassion, support a how are you ...not too much to ask for in my real life ..sorry just a really bad period in my life and I am empty ..I was losing myself before Giz passed and even more so now
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I am hurting for you. I wish I knew the right words to say. I can honestly say I know a little how you feel. I have our two baby girls that we bought less than a week ago days after loosing Pinky. I am still grieving for Pinky. Puppies are so much work, and stress. I forgot how much work. One good thing is they keep me busy.
Anytime there is crisis in our lives it causes us to evaluate our lives. I did the same as you. In looking at my life I have many regrets and things I wish I could change. One big one is that I am 36 years old and have not had children. I always wanted children, but it was never the right time. Our dog was our child. Now I am having health issues and realize we probably won\'t have children. We will just have dogs and because they don\'t live as long and children, they each will leave us. I can not go back in time, even though it sure would be nice. I can treasure the good memories and experiences that I have had in my life. The loneliness, heartaches, and pain even though I hate to admit it have had their purpose in my life. They have given me compassion for others going through similar situations and have allowed me to help others. From what I see. You have helped many people. You have a purpose. And if you have children or grandchildren. You have even a greater purpose. That is to love them, guide, and enjoy them while they are here.
My heart physically aches when I think of your pain. I will be praying for you.