so unhappy

my life has changed so much since I lost my baby..reality is setting in and I look at my life and now wonder just what the hell I'm doing...I am not happy..I'll be honest sometimes I have wondered why I am here and always it comes back to my 2 boys and one has left me and I got another and am thinking how trapped in this mess I created..I am so unhappy in my life right now and all I have is my 2 pups..I dont know what to do, where to turn..what a friggin mess, I have no support in my life just when I am here..thats where I get compassion, support a how are you ...not too much to ask for in my real life ..sorry just a really bad period in my life and I am empty ..I was losing myself before Giz passed and even more so now