So tired of waiting

Seems like I'm spending almost all my time just waiting. Waiting for work, waiting for Bob, waiting for dates and times to come. It can get pretty anoying, and I feel fed up with it at times. I try to feel good, and not want to drink, but it's agravating me. I have that feeling that life is just going by. Just an agravating time. I hate always being alone too. It's hard trying to get by, and that's bout all I seem to be doing. I need to get back into meetings again. That seems like such a struggle to do. Just feel like there's not much fun right now.