So Tired.... beyond words...

I'm so fed up .... fed up with every part of him. It's at the point now where I can't count on the " good times ", because I know for a fact that those " good times " won't last at all. They don't typically last longer than a few days, or possibly a week at the most if I'm lucky. Then once that time is over he's right back to ALL of his old RAGE behaviors ! ALL of them ! Everything from OCD behaviors, to yelling at me for not filling up my gallon water bottle the night before ! OMG ! I told him this morning... " What's the damn difference ?! I was planning on filling it up as soon as I was up this morning ! " But oh no... according to him... I did it WRONG in his eyes ! 

EVERYTHING I do is WRONG according to him - big or small, it doesn't matter. 

Even when I try to calmly reason with him, and tell him that two people are NOT going to ALWAYS agree on how to do EVERYTHING ! Plus I've calmly told him that I don't HAVE TO LIKE EVERYTHING THAT HE DOES ! But in his twisted reality, that it how things HAVE TO BE ALL THE DAMN TIME ! 

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at the end of my rope.

I still love him.... BUT... how do I continue this way... HOW ??????????