so this was the last thing i needed

I have this major project due for my online class and i'm having major problems getting the video from the camera to youtube...its due at midnight. Going to buy a new camera and see if that works. Totally freaking out. Already had one panic attack today, not looking forward to another one.

I'm still having issues battling this depression. Dissolving into tears for no reason etc. My poor friends who have to put up with me are nice I guess. One of them told me to 'snap out of it.' If I could have reached out through the phone I would have and slapped him. Like don't u think if I could stop feeling like this I would? I hate having these thoughts. I am so low its so hard to do anything. Oh well. Off to try not to fail...