so much on my mind
There is so much on my mind right now. There is so much that is going wrong with me right now. I just don't know where to start so that I can try to figure all this out right now. I just don't know what I am going to do right now. There is so much that is just going wrong right now that I don't know where to even start to fix them. Just when I think that I can get one fixed or figured out, I get 5 more to fix. I feel so lost and confused about everything in my life right now.
I am 11 weeks away from having my 3rd baby and I don't know what I am going to do with nothing. I have nothing for this baby other than a pack of diapers, a diaper bag, a few bottles, made some blankets from some fabric that I had around the house, a swing, and that's all. I have had two people tell me that they where going to bring me some baby clothes but nothing yet. I have another person saying that they are going to give me a lot of baby clothes but I am just going to wait and see what happens and not get my hopes up on it. When I do that, then it never happens. My mom said that she was going to do the baby shower but she hasn't made any calls about where to do one at or asked me for names or anything. So I am at the point of saying screw it all and not worry about it at all. With my 3 yr old son, I was about to buy some things off the internet for cheap and had a so called friend that did a baby shower. But the few things that I got off line, helped because it meant that I didn't have to buy many clothes the first year of this life. I hate being this close to my due date when I can have the baby early, and not have anything that I need. I have no car seat, no bed, no baby clothes, and its all driving me crazy right now. I feel like i am going to break.
Plus the bills are just coming and coming and there is no money coming in to pay them all. I have to find another car because my truck died on me. So my income tax is gone to a new car and I don't know what or how I am going to do about everything right now and its really stressing me out. Plus lets not forget that I have a 9 year old that is homeschooled and has ADHD, A 3 year old son that is showing signs of ADHD, I have my school work but don't have my books yet and class started a week ago. My mom always complains about everything and wants it her way or she has to bitch about it all. My fiancé works and the only one that works but doesn't bring in enough money. He seems to do a few things around the house but forgets to tell me what he has done so I need up doing it over again after he has done it. I can't talk to him about how I am feeling because he never listens to me and I feel like when I do talk that I am talking to a brick wall. I just want to stop worrying so much about everything so that I don't go crazy and I don't have this baby early because I am not ready for her.
I NEED SOME HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I am 11 weeks away from having my 3rd baby and I don't know what I am going to do with nothing. I have nothing for this baby other than a pack of diapers, a diaper bag, a few bottles, made some blankets from some fabric that I had around the house, a swing, and that's all. I have had two people tell me that they where going to bring me some baby clothes but nothing yet. I have another person saying that they are going to give me a lot of baby clothes but I am just going to wait and see what happens and not get my hopes up on it. When I do that, then it never happens. My mom said that she was going to do the baby shower but she hasn't made any calls about where to do one at or asked me for names or anything. So I am at the point of saying screw it all and not worry about it at all. With my 3 yr old son, I was about to buy some things off the internet for cheap and had a so called friend that did a baby shower. But the few things that I got off line, helped because it meant that I didn't have to buy many clothes the first year of this life. I hate being this close to my due date when I can have the baby early, and not have anything that I need. I have no car seat, no bed, no baby clothes, and its all driving me crazy right now. I feel like i am going to break.
Plus the bills are just coming and coming and there is no money coming in to pay them all. I have to find another car because my truck died on me. So my income tax is gone to a new car and I don't know what or how I am going to do about everything right now and its really stressing me out. Plus lets not forget that I have a 9 year old that is homeschooled and has ADHD, A 3 year old son that is showing signs of ADHD, I have my school work but don't have my books yet and class started a week ago. My mom always complains about everything and wants it her way or she has to bitch about it all. My fiancé works and the only one that works but doesn't bring in enough money. He seems to do a few things around the house but forgets to tell me what he has done so I need up doing it over again after he has done it. I can't talk to him about how I am feeling because he never listens to me and I feel like when I do talk that I am talking to a brick wall. I just want to stop worrying so much about everything so that I don't go crazy and I don't have this baby early because I am not ready for her.
I NEED SOME HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
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Hi,
Please contact your local community services for help. Where I live it\'s called WIC: Women, infants,and children. They can help you with all kinds of things including getting an infant car seat, etc... The help is out there, I just don\'t know the contacts where you live. So sorry you are having a hard time, but don\'t hesitate to ask for help from these services, your baby and your other kids deserve it. Hang in there!
I hear you. I agree with mbowden. Contact your local social services agency. They can provide support and help you get through this time. You have a lot on your plate, but BREATHE. To get you out of that negative spiral try to think of five positive things in your life. Take things one step at a time. Wake up tomorrow, eat your breakfast, take your shower and begin to tackle those small goals one at a time. It doesn\'t have to all get done at once. Hugs.
One step at a time friend. I agree with the other ladies- contact your local social services and they can help you.
Thanks everyone. things have some what turned around for us. My hubby to be got another job to help with the bills but its still not many days. I have been able to get a few more baby things from buying off line from people that where selling things that they did not need anymore. But its still been hard.