So Much for That...
Yesterday I said that I was planning on eating better, and I end up eating doughnuts for breakfast and pizza for dinner. It was all my fault. I had some leftover doughnuts from yesterday, so I ate them for breakfast planning on having a healthy dinner, and then I got tempted by the pizza ads on TV for dinner. Geo and I were watching the Bengals/ Texans game (I don't know who won... we ended up switching channels before the game was over) and the pizza commercials kept coming on. I'm way over my calories for the day, and sky-high on fat. I guess tomorrow I'm going to really have to make up for it and eat better. I just checked... the Texans won. I was kinda going for the Bengals, but it didn't really matter to me. I'm not a big football fan, I was just watching it with Geo to spend time with him. I guess I need to plan what I watch with him better. Things without tempting commercials, or commercials for delivery. We don't have a car, so regular fast food ads can't tempt us since we can't get there.
I did get my walk in today, with some jogging. I started out going a bit slow, and then took it up a notch as I got farther and farther. I had to take walking breaks, but I managed to get in a nice jog at the end. I have to be careful with my knees, though, since by the end my knees were hurting. That's why I took walking breaks. I have to build up to the speed where I can jog all the time. I made sure to warm up properly and cool down. I didn't stretch when I was done, and that was my fault. I came home and had to use the bathroom and got distracted by Geo in the room. He was watching the game, something he normally does on his TV not on mine. I was wondering what he was doing watching my TV, so I came into the room to look, and that was the end of my stretching plans. I should have stretched anyway, but I had forgotten. Now it's too late.
My mood was okay today... I woke up feeling like pure and utter crap. I didn't sleep well last night for some unknown reason, and so when I woke up at 11am today I wanted to go back to sleep. I kept trying, and except for a small nap around 12:30 I couldn't sleep. I finally got out of bed around 3pm, had my coffee and went for my walk. After I had my coffee I felt fine, but I don't like the idea of being dependent on coffee to get me out of bed. It makes it harder to get those good nights of sleep. At least I didn't do what I wanted to and take a klonopin to make me nap. I've been trying to avoid taking the klonopin as much as possible to save some for my trip to LA, plus it's a bad idea to use a sleeping pill for a nap. Especially a nap in the afternoon. I hope I sleep tonight. I need a night of good sleep to get me feeling better and get me ready for my trip. I'm going to pack when I'm done with my journal. I normally don't get packed until the day before, but this is a big trip and I need to make sure I have everything I need.
Maybe that's why I didn't sleep as well as I wanted.... maybe I'm getting nervous about my trip. I hope not, since I still have a couple more days to go and more sleep I need to get before I can get on that plane. I don't want to have to take klonopin every night before my trip. I just want a good night's sleep that's drug-free. Well, at least actual sleeping pill free sleep. One of my regular medications is a sleeping pill and an antidepressant, but I don't count that since I have to take it every night. It does help me sleep a bit, but not as much as the klonopin does. As it is, I take a lot of that pill, and it doesn't even keep me asleep through the whole night.
Food as I said above was horrible today... I'm way high on calories. I gained a bit of weight, but it could just be water weight since I haven't eaten the 3,500 extra calories you need to gain a pound of fat. I haven't been drinking my water, so that could mean I'm bloated. I just have trouble drinking water when I'm not thirsty. Today I will get my 8 cups in, though. Between milk and water I've already drank the 8 cups you need per day. I did have some coffee today, so I'm going to need a bit of extra water to make up for the water loss from the caffeine, but I can do that. Stress today was fine... I just felt like crap when I woke up, but I wasn't stressed. Sleep last night was crappy for some unknown reason... I just need to figure out what I need to do to get a good night's sleep.
I did get my walk in today, with some jogging. I started out going a bit slow, and then took it up a notch as I got farther and farther. I had to take walking breaks, but I managed to get in a nice jog at the end. I have to be careful with my knees, though, since by the end my knees were hurting. That's why I took walking breaks. I have to build up to the speed where I can jog all the time. I made sure to warm up properly and cool down. I didn't stretch when I was done, and that was my fault. I came home and had to use the bathroom and got distracted by Geo in the room. He was watching the game, something he normally does on his TV not on mine. I was wondering what he was doing watching my TV, so I came into the room to look, and that was the end of my stretching plans. I should have stretched anyway, but I had forgotten. Now it's too late.
My mood was okay today... I woke up feeling like pure and utter crap. I didn't sleep well last night for some unknown reason, and so when I woke up at 11am today I wanted to go back to sleep. I kept trying, and except for a small nap around 12:30 I couldn't sleep. I finally got out of bed around 3pm, had my coffee and went for my walk. After I had my coffee I felt fine, but I don't like the idea of being dependent on coffee to get me out of bed. It makes it harder to get those good nights of sleep. At least I didn't do what I wanted to and take a klonopin to make me nap. I've been trying to avoid taking the klonopin as much as possible to save some for my trip to LA, plus it's a bad idea to use a sleeping pill for a nap. Especially a nap in the afternoon. I hope I sleep tonight. I need a night of good sleep to get me feeling better and get me ready for my trip. I'm going to pack when I'm done with my journal. I normally don't get packed until the day before, but this is a big trip and I need to make sure I have everything I need.
Maybe that's why I didn't sleep as well as I wanted.... maybe I'm getting nervous about my trip. I hope not, since I still have a couple more days to go and more sleep I need to get before I can get on that plane. I don't want to have to take klonopin every night before my trip. I just want a good night's sleep that's drug-free. Well, at least actual sleeping pill free sleep. One of my regular medications is a sleeping pill and an antidepressant, but I don't count that since I have to take it every night. It does help me sleep a bit, but not as much as the klonopin does. As it is, I take a lot of that pill, and it doesn't even keep me asleep through the whole night.
Food as I said above was horrible today... I'm way high on calories. I gained a bit of weight, but it could just be water weight since I haven't eaten the 3,500 extra calories you need to gain a pound of fat. I haven't been drinking my water, so that could mean I'm bloated. I just have trouble drinking water when I'm not thirsty. Today I will get my 8 cups in, though. Between milk and water I've already drank the 8 cups you need per day. I did have some coffee today, so I'm going to need a bit of extra water to make up for the water loss from the caffeine, but I can do that. Stress today was fine... I just felt like crap when I woke up, but I wasn't stressed. Sleep last night was crappy for some unknown reason... I just need to figure out what I need to do to get a good night's sleep.
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I know what you were thinking when you ate the doughnut - at least this is what I would have said to self. One more doughnut left...eat it and get it gone!
Great walk today! And some jogging to. Great!
its ok to slip up and eat more then you should, we all slip, then get back up and start again. i am so sorry about the sleeping problem, have you called your doctor? you really shouldnt use the klonopin for sleep, it is primarily an anti anxiexty drug, and is a controlled substance, you have to be careful. does the doctor know why you are taking it? nice watching tv with geo, do you normally watch together or seperate? great job on joging, an exercise i cant imagine doing. hugss