so hot and cold.

just had a big old honkin hot flash. had to put the a/c on. supposed to go to aunts house today, bet i dont. need to clean house and shower, hope i do at leaste the shower. tryed to clean a little last night, got very anxiaty, as ussuall. its about 10 a.m. need to take xanex, am fighting it. ill just go back to sleep and get nothing done. i wish i could go to a far off place by myself till this stupid peri menapause goes away. been on menapause site. it made me feel not so alone, but its very sad and scarry. i dont know about all this. i wish the weather would be cooler. i hate the heat. supposed to be in the 80s again today. im not going out in that. ill go out at night. no sunscrean needed. ok, moore later. going to shower b4 it starts storming.....