So happy now!

I have been reading for the past couple of years on the topic of pathological psychology. I put an end to my relationship with my mother about a year and a half ago. I learned from the first book that she was/is very narcissistic and not at all safe to be around. Over the past month or so I have been happier then I've ever been. Peace , hapiness and all the good stuff has come into my life. I sure do not want to go back to those days of always trying to please somebody who can't/won't ever be pleased by me. I have continued reading and never thought I'd be interested in such a topic. But surprisingly it has given me my life I always deserved. My intro into pathological psychology was introduced to me here on DS. Now I'm so much more happy then ever before. My mother was not worthy of all the trust I gave her. Seeing she may have a personality disorder i have forgiven her again. But reconciliation is impossible because the joy of people with such disorders is to hurt those they target for abuse as well as massive attention desires being fulfilled by those that make up her audience. I am not able to say she has a personality disorder, but she sure has certain trairs of such. So I stay away.