so grateful

I'm here at my place and I just need to relate to you guys.

My remaining budget for the week is to go to refreshments

during the workweek and so I'm conserving funds by staying home.

It's boring and for some reason I tend to think "I'm the only one who can't

do what they want" but I know that's not the case. I wish I had a bigger

budget but I have so much to be grateful for. I could go for another walk. I could

drive over to the Barnes & Noble and look at magazines and there's still time

in the day to do that.

I'm also going to my parents' house to have a Sunday dinner in a couple of hours.

That'll be nice. I was just watching 'figure skating' on NBC while on the bed with Blue

asleep in my lap. Again, it's a little boring but having you guys to relate this to

is making me remember how grateful I am and I will get back to that stuff on tv soon.

I've eaten my fair share today. I don't need to eat more before dinner.

Looking forward to talking to my therapist on Tuesday. That goes without

saying pretty much. Being alone with my own thoughts and impulses has

me kind of rigid about making a wrong move or just empty of imagination

and quite literally it affects my

sense of singularity and again writing here helps me feel commonality. :)

Likewise writing gives me a concreteness to see I do have options that

I can choose instead of passively watching tv.

I hope you guys are good. 

Tossing handfuls or rose petals from the balcony in celebration - well, metaphorically.

Peace,

m