Smokey's birthday is coming up so no wonder I miss him!

Smokey's birthday is coming up on April 30th.  No wonder I miss him so very much.  I was on my bed crying my heart out.  I couldn't figure why it was coming out of me now.  I remembered his birthday.  Ironically, both Dave and Smokey were born in April.  Dave on April 29th.  Smokey on April 30th.  They were one day and 14 years apart.  Smokey born April 30, 1949.  Dave born April 29, 1963.  I just had to share this with everyone.
My brother Don was supposed to come over for lunch.  He forgot.
Grant had yesterday off work and was supposed to baby sit his own son.  He forgot and went golfing with his friends.  My daughter Lisa called me to babysit at 4 p.m.  I said to Lisa that Grant told me he was going to babysit.  It's when Lisa said he went golfing with his friends.  It was short notice but I babysit for 3 hours before Grant got back from golfing.  I reminded him that he was going to babysit.  He apologized. Grant told me he hadn't seen his friends in two months.  It's not my fault.  
Both these guys have disappointed me that is for sure in the course of two days.
It's a beautiful sunny day today here in Vancouver, BC Canada.  I have my front blinds open to the sunshine outside.  
With me missing Smokey so much, it's no wonder I can't give anyone my heart until I heal from my own loss and pain.  I enjoy Dave's company and we have fun together.  For now, it is just what I need in my own life.  It's not easy healing from the pain of loss in  your life.
All the best to everyone and thank you for listening to me vent out my feelings and frustrations from Diane B.