Smokey made me feel loved, safe and secure
Smokey made me feel loved, safe and secure. I think a person safe and secure when they are loved. I had no doubt about being loved by Smokey. He said Diane you don't know how very deeply that I love you. It just blew me away when Smokey said that to me. With his death, I don't have that anymore. Dating is not the same thing as having the love of your life with you. Dave is nice and everything but it has only been on month. He has his hang ups as well.
Dave was in a ten year relationship with Catherine and she left him. This hurt him a lot. I was with Smokey for ten years when he died. It still causes me pain. With Dave, it was about three years ago when Catherine left him. About 1 1/2 years ago Dave got involved with Wendy but she went back to her boyfriend. I came into the picture August 2010, I am Dave's recent women in his life. Dave is friends with this married couple Gary and Kerry. Before Dave met me he said to Gary if you die, I am going after Kerry. This is enough to make the new woman in Dave's life feel very insecure. This was before he met me. I think if our relationship developed into something serious, maybe it would not be such an issue for me. It is just in the beginning stages and his comment to Gary makes me feel real insecure and not safe. I have been thinking about that all morning. Dave left for work at 5:45 and the times is now 7:22 a.m. I keep comparing Smokey and Dave with each other in the mornings. It is what it is.
I am pretty sure that since Smokey died that it makes me feel insecure and not safe. I don't need another man in my life to leave me. I need to feel safe, secure and loved again. Dating someone for one month is too soon for any of it. At least with all my Daily Strength friends I can vent all these things out to you and not be judged by any of it. What can I say but I am a tad bit inseure these days. After all, Smokey was the love of my life.
Smokey would never cheat. He was loyal, faithful and true blue. What Smokey said is what he meant to say. Smokey was a confident man. Smokey and I figured these things before going out for 3 months. We just knew what the other person was like and felt safe and secure before falling into love. It doesn't happen this way to everyone so I was blessed that it did happen to me. Dave is another kettle of fish and don't know what to make of him. I don't think Dave is as confident as Smokey. I don't know if this is going to be a short lived affair or will it develop into something more serious. No one knows not even the people involved. We said to each other we will take it one day at a time. It is fine for now.
Mornings of Monday to Friday are my worst for thinking all kinds of crazy things and non-crazy thoughts. Monday to Friday I can count on me thinking all kinds of things. Thank you for all my Daily Strength friends for letting me vent out all these things. You are all worth your weight in gold or are one in a million.
From Diane Baillie
Dave was in a ten year relationship with Catherine and she left him. This hurt him a lot. I was with Smokey for ten years when he died. It still causes me pain. With Dave, it was about three years ago when Catherine left him. About 1 1/2 years ago Dave got involved with Wendy but she went back to her boyfriend. I came into the picture August 2010, I am Dave's recent women in his life. Dave is friends with this married couple Gary and Kerry. Before Dave met me he said to Gary if you die, I am going after Kerry. This is enough to make the new woman in Dave's life feel very insecure. This was before he met me. I think if our relationship developed into something serious, maybe it would not be such an issue for me. It is just in the beginning stages and his comment to Gary makes me feel real insecure and not safe. I have been thinking about that all morning. Dave left for work at 5:45 and the times is now 7:22 a.m. I keep comparing Smokey and Dave with each other in the mornings. It is what it is.
I am pretty sure that since Smokey died that it makes me feel insecure and not safe. I don't need another man in my life to leave me. I need to feel safe, secure and loved again. Dating someone for one month is too soon for any of it. At least with all my Daily Strength friends I can vent all these things out to you and not be judged by any of it. What can I say but I am a tad bit inseure these days. After all, Smokey was the love of my life.
Smokey would never cheat. He was loyal, faithful and true blue. What Smokey said is what he meant to say. Smokey was a confident man. Smokey and I figured these things before going out for 3 months. We just knew what the other person was like and felt safe and secure before falling into love. It doesn't happen this way to everyone so I was blessed that it did happen to me. Dave is another kettle of fish and don't know what to make of him. I don't think Dave is as confident as Smokey. I don't know if this is going to be a short lived affair or will it develop into something more serious. No one knows not even the people involved. We said to each other we will take it one day at a time. It is fine for now.
Mornings of Monday to Friday are my worst for thinking all kinds of crazy things and non-crazy thoughts. Monday to Friday I can count on me thinking all kinds of things. Thank you for all my Daily Strength friends for letting me vent out all these things. You are all worth your weight in gold or are one in a million.
From Diane Baillie
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