Slowly Getting Better

I'm getting better slowly.... my stomach was really acting up last Wednesday and I had to go to the ER. I hadn't pooped in a week and couldn't pee for days. They gave me a lot of laxatives (which took days to work) and drained my bladder via catheter. I'm doing better now, and my mood is improving as well. I'm still a bit depressed, but nothing bad. I saw my therapist and she was saying I have to distract myself from the urge to cut when it happens. She says I can sleep, which is normally my only remedy, but not to rely on it. I should do something like go for a walk or play on the computer. Journaling is even better. The urge only lasted for that morning last week, so that's good. 
As for my weight... I've been trying to work on it. I've been stuck between 215-220 for 4 months now. Right now during the holidays my main goal is to not gain weight. We had our volunteer holiday luncheon today, and I think I ate well. I focused on the protein and veggies. I will see what the scale says tomorrow. I've been at exactly 216.0 for the past 4 days. When I wasn't able to use the bathroom, I went all the way up to 221 because I couldn't get anything out. At least my weight is stable now.
Yesterday I was depressed, but I had a bit of energy. I called my friend Andrea and she convinced me to go into work, even more because I was depressed. I wasn't going to go in, but she kicked my butt and I went in. I only stayed for a couple hours, but it started me getting out of this depression. I woke up this morning tired, but I got out of bed and went in for the luncheon. We got poinsettias and a certificate of appreciation from our bosses. I'm off tomorrow but I might go in on Thursday. I made some cookies yesterday and brought them to my boss's apartment just across the way from me. Our apartments face each other. She gave them to her grandson, and he loved them. Kids... you have to love them.