Slept All Day
I was so tired today. I'm still tired. I can't wait until it's time for me to go to bed. I slept last night from midnight until 4:30pm. I did wake up for a bit around 2pm and ate breakfast and had some coffee, but the coffee did nothing and I fell back asleep around 3pm. I should have come on the computer and taken care of some of my stuff, but I didn't. Geo also woke up at 4:30, so I watched him play some video games. I also went for a walk. It was just a .8 mile walk, but it was something. My hips were hurting a bit, but my shins were fine. I walked slow just to get my body used to walking again. I wanted to do my whole 1.2 mile walk, but I didn't want to push myself too far. If it's not raining tomorrow I might go and do that. Then just start slowly increasing the distance again. I keep on having to start over. I don't like that, but it's all I can really do. I got hurt, and the last thing you want to do is push yourself too far when you are hurt. I did that once, and my shins hurt for years. I don't even know if they are fully healed now from w hen I hurt them in high school 13 years ago. I was injured then, not just hurt. Hurt you can still go, injured you need to stop.
I get my tooth pulled on Tuesday. I'm not looking forward to having to wake up at 8am just to get my tooth pulled, but it's been bugging me for weeks and it needs to come out. It's right next to a nerve, so it's going to be tricky getting it out. I hope it's not like my wisdom teeth where the roots had the jaw in a grip, so they had to rip out part of my jaw to get the tooth out. I saw the x-ray and it's not conclusive as to whether the roots are mixed with the jaw. I've been using dental wax to seal the gap in my tooth. About a quarter of the tooth is gone. You can see the black inside where the tooth has died. I didn't know that it was dead, and now I'm wondering if I have any other dead teeth in my mouth. It's kinda a creepy feeling, not knowing how they are doing. I try my best to keep up with my teeth, but I'm not perfect. I have an electric toothbrush, and it goes dead every now and then, so I have to brush by hand and I know it's not as good as the electric toothbrush.
I'm so worried about sleep tonight. I'm going to try and go in early tomorrow to get my spot in Managed Care. I don't want to have to work the Information Desk again. I want back in the office with the nice girls and where there's free food and coffee. Besides, I need to start waking up early to get myself into the routine. It's just so hard when Geo is sleeping and there's nothing for me to do. I could go on the computer, but that gets boring after a while. Maybe I could go for a walk... it just depends on the weather. We are heading into summer (well, we are already in summer temperature wise) and so it's our rainy season. I managed to pick up some hurricane supplies at the store yesterday, and hid them in our closet. Next month I will get more when our food stamps come in. Our food stamps came in yesterday, that's how we got to go shopping. We spent about $130 on food for the month. Now we just need to buy milk and bread and other little things, but the main part of it is done. We have about $50 left in food stamps, so we should be good.
Speaking of food, today I was good on food. Probably because I was sleeping all day, but I didn't go over my calories. I was low on protein, but I can make that up. I might have a protein shake with breakfast tomorrow to make up for it. I need more protein shake mix, but it can wait. I don't use it a lot. Mostly because it tastes like crap with water and we don't always have milk when I need it. I guess that's something I can do for now- drink a glass of milk. I already brushed my teeth, though, so I'm not sure.
Mood today was good.... I was watching Geo play video games or watching TV with Geo for most of the day, so it was nice to spend some time with him. I don't normally watch him play his games, but it was nice. He likes having me by his side, and he was rubbing my back while the game was loading. It was nice to get attention. I'm still an attention whore, just not as bad anymore. I think everyone would like that, being showed love. I also got to go for a walk and clear my mind a bit. I think tomorrow after work I'm going to go for a walk without my headphones and just try and remember my Nana. I just wish it would hit me already. I almost hit her speed dial last night, but then I remembered she was gone. It was hard, but it wasn't too bad.
I get my tooth pulled on Tuesday. I'm not looking forward to having to wake up at 8am just to get my tooth pulled, but it's been bugging me for weeks and it needs to come out. It's right next to a nerve, so it's going to be tricky getting it out. I hope it's not like my wisdom teeth where the roots had the jaw in a grip, so they had to rip out part of my jaw to get the tooth out. I saw the x-ray and it's not conclusive as to whether the roots are mixed with the jaw. I've been using dental wax to seal the gap in my tooth. About a quarter of the tooth is gone. You can see the black inside where the tooth has died. I didn't know that it was dead, and now I'm wondering if I have any other dead teeth in my mouth. It's kinda a creepy feeling, not knowing how they are doing. I try my best to keep up with my teeth, but I'm not perfect. I have an electric toothbrush, and it goes dead every now and then, so I have to brush by hand and I know it's not as good as the electric toothbrush.
I'm so worried about sleep tonight. I'm going to try and go in early tomorrow to get my spot in Managed Care. I don't want to have to work the Information Desk again. I want back in the office with the nice girls and where there's free food and coffee. Besides, I need to start waking up early to get myself into the routine. It's just so hard when Geo is sleeping and there's nothing for me to do. I could go on the computer, but that gets boring after a while. Maybe I could go for a walk... it just depends on the weather. We are heading into summer (well, we are already in summer temperature wise) and so it's our rainy season. I managed to pick up some hurricane supplies at the store yesterday, and hid them in our closet. Next month I will get more when our food stamps come in. Our food stamps came in yesterday, that's how we got to go shopping. We spent about $130 on food for the month. Now we just need to buy milk and bread and other little things, but the main part of it is done. We have about $50 left in food stamps, so we should be good.
Speaking of food, today I was good on food. Probably because I was sleeping all day, but I didn't go over my calories. I was low on protein, but I can make that up. I might have a protein shake with breakfast tomorrow to make up for it. I need more protein shake mix, but it can wait. I don't use it a lot. Mostly because it tastes like crap with water and we don't always have milk when I need it. I guess that's something I can do for now- drink a glass of milk. I already brushed my teeth, though, so I'm not sure.
Mood today was good.... I was watching Geo play video games or watching TV with Geo for most of the day, so it was nice to spend some time with him. I don't normally watch him play his games, but it was nice. He likes having me by his side, and he was rubbing my back while the game was loading. It was nice to get attention. I'm still an attention whore, just not as bad anymore. I think everyone would like that, being showed love. I also got to go for a walk and clear my mind a bit. I think tomorrow after work I'm going to go for a walk without my headphones and just try and remember my Nana. I just wish it would hit me already. I almost hit her speed dial last night, but then I remembered she was gone. It was hard, but it wasn't too bad.
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sorry i hav been gone for the past few days. its amazing that you are so tired after sleeping till 4:30, sometimes when we get to much sleep we feel worse. i hope it works for you getting up earlier, i think it is a great idea. as you are getting into that routine, you can slowly get back to the exercise routine you had been doing, walking, weights, etc... is my memory right, do you have acess to a pool? that is great exercise with joint aches. it is definetly nice to get love and simple gestures as the back rubs, i am starving for them. good luck with your teeth!