SLEEPPPPPPPPPPPP

I am so sick of the crap in my life right now. i have a bf that dont care about how i feel or what i am feeling. I cant say anything to him about things bc he can make me feel like I am being stupid with how i am feeling. He dont spend any time with me and just stays in the bed, or on the xbox all day other than to eat, and work. Right now i am going on maybe 3 hours sleep in 48 hours and i am so tried that its not funny. I just want to crawl into my bed and sleep for days but i  knw that it wont happy bc i have to get up and take care of my kids. But my bf has told me once before that he would watch them for me to get some sleep but he never does and the one time that i tried to go lay down, one of my kids was screaming for him and i waited and he did nothing. I ended up getting up and he then went to lay down and went to sleep. i was so mad that i wanted to just hit him. he says one thing and does something different. I just want to sleep right now and i just want a bf that will do what he says he will do, not act stupid, and just be there for me and help me out some. I mean how hard is it to watch two kids for a couple of hours so i could get a nap in after cleaning the house, cooking, laundry, taking him to work, staying up till late, picking him up and try to get a little sleep? He makes it seem like i am asking for his life. I just want what i put into the relationship in return from him to say that he cares and loves me the way he says he does. But i am done venting for now. Time to lay on the couch and maybe get 30 minutes before i have to get up for the day.