sinking into depression
I feel like Im treading water trying to keep my head up and part of me says just let go . I am tired of being in pain while trying to be "normal" for the family .I m tired of my siblings ,,I stopped phoning or trying to make arrangements to get together ,and I havent heard anything from them for months now. I feel stupid now like I was forcing myself on them ,they obviously dont want to see me. My kids are almost the same , well the oldest lives far away.
Im sure I mentioned we were not listed on the christening handout ,only daughter in laws parents listed as proud grandparents, We of course have hurt feelings another sting from that side of the family .I know dam well that her side scrapbooks and didnt want a keepsake with our names on it.
Plus theyd rather pay a babysitter when she goes back to work than have me do it for free, Zing right thru the heart with that one , Im humiliated even my brother gets to babysit his grandaughter.
Im sure I mentioned we were not listed on the christening handout ,only daughter in laws parents listed as proud grandparents, We of course have hurt feelings another sting from that side of the family .I know dam well that her side scrapbooks and didnt want a keepsake with our names on it.
Plus theyd rather pay a babysitter when she goes back to work than have me do it for free, Zing right thru the heart with that one , Im humiliated even my brother gets to babysit his grandaughter.
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What does your son have to say about all of this crap? You mention her a lot, and her family, but what about him? He should be ashamed.
As for the rest of your family, every family has one person that keeps them all together. The others are usually grateful that the gathering isn\'t their responsibility. Keep your chin up, things will look better soon. I\'m praying for you.
Thanks cj ,Im just whining . I felt really good today no pain from my fibro and no fog .I must say it feels weird .If only it would last,maybe it will I cleaned for a few hours and felt fine. But I cant sleep its 2 am. and Im wide awake .Dont know why my muscle relaxants and Lyrica usually help but not tonite good thing nothings up for tommorrow
Yes he should be ashamed ,but he and the wife are very materialistic ,I think he is embarrassed by us because we dont have fancy stuff I have never felt the need for it ,so what if the dinner plates dont match and our car is old ,things dont make me a better person,Im fine the way I am
I\'m sorry to say this but SHAME on him. I\'m sure you did not raise him this way. Hang in there.
~HugS~ Nae\'