Since Sunday, its been a lot more emotional

With our dryer being down and other things going wrong around the house, things have been a lot more difficult here at home. Before my fiance` and youngest daughter left on Friday morning, he tried to brew a pot of coffee to take with him on the road. However, the pot only brewed halfway til after they left. So, he thought that it had broke and he just has been working a lot of hours now so he's more tired then he was before a lot more regularly. We've had problems and fights/arguments off and on for a few years and it doesn't seem to be getting better with anything I try to remedy it. There's so many things I can't even begin to list them all. 

Anyways, on Saturday, I had hung up the clothes from the last wash I did and on Sunday I thought they were dry enough to fold and put away, but apparently they weren't and I didn't get to them before he did when he got home that night from his little trip to Fairbanks. He said the bedding was all wet and that he'd have to take it to the laundromat to dry after work on Monday along with the other laundry that hadn't been washed or dried yet. So, in turn, he took out his frustration on me and like I always do I try to call him out on the way he treats me when things don't go his way or when he doesn't have control over things and I might've made them a little worse then what they initially did, but it hurt the way he always talk to me. His tone of voice and the words he uses. He blames everything on me and expects me to be perfect with everything, even things I don't have control over at all. I feel like he hates me, but he has said he doesn't, he just doesn't like when I make mistakes. But he doesn't have to be perfect or live up to his own standards half the time. 

On Monday after work, he grabbed the laundry and did what he said he was going to do and he seemed like he was still in a bad mood, so I stayed clear of him and kept my mouth shut, though I wanted to say a few things again. When he got home that night after doing the laundry, I offered to help make the bed and he refused because he was too tired to even do it himself anyways. So he slept on the bed again without sheets under him and just one blanket over him. He sleeps hot anyways. On Tuesday, I made it a point to make the bed by myself, except for the pillowcases. I also made sure I had dinner ready and waiting for him when he pulled in the driveway along with an Apple Crumb pie, too. After he ate and did a few things he said he needed to do, he seemed in a little better of a mood and I told him that I made the bed and dinner to try to make up for all the things I've done wrong that he didn't like. It seemed as though right after that he changed his tune and I felt worse then I did cause it wasn't all my fault we got into a fight/argument. His tone of voice and the words he used to talk to me with were very hurtful to me and I feel like I shouldn't have said what I did. 

I'm hoping that tonight when he gets home he is in a better mood then he was last night even. I'm going to also talk to my youngest son about using some of his food stamps for the electricity he's been using outside too. Other than that, my left ear is plugged up and really bothering me and my right ear has a lot of wax in it too still. Andn Hope's Dr. is sending a new prescription for the 36mg. of Concerta since I left a message yesterday. 

Hope is doing really good with swallowing the little pills now too and showing me that she swallowed them. I just have to get her 4th quarter for raven done before the middle of June so we can meet with Terri and finalize the year. I'm nervous about Hope going to public school next year.