Since my last post

Sooooo..  Russ has not drank since the 5th of July.....   not sure what to think or if I should believe....   I feel like if I start to believe ... it will all go bad again...   I think it goes without saying how hard it is for me to trust in someone.. Russ has had many.. many ...many ....chances...  and has lied and hurt me over and over and over again...  I have trusted and believed ..... hundreds of times with him..   I have hoped and prayed and I have been let down every time..   So as u know I put up defenses... and I just dont know if i can let down that guard again.. that guard that has taken me many months to build up against his bullshit excuses and his emotional abuse..  There seems to be a change in him.. he is sleeping less.. and hanging out with us more.. doing things around the house..   He has been trying to make new friends... which is a good thing..  I guess his "so called" friends... are giving him alot of shit for not drinking... he for the 1st time hung out with some of my co worker's last friday night... and a couple of those guys know what he has done to me...   but I guess he told that to one of those guys .. and my friend looked at him , and said... well ... then they really arent ur friends are they, if they cant see what ur doing, and what ur trying to do.    Which I think really got him thinking.    and actually...  this time..   yes I can tell something is diff.. within Russ... but like I said.. it might be a lil to late... He might have just burned way to many bridges with me..   I am having a hard time, believing and trying to trust in him...  I know he is trying really hard and this thing with not drinking .. and its great for him..  i am proud of him...   I dont know..i know he is trying to surround himself with diff people ... and I know he had fun the other night..  and I think truthfully,  he is looking for that fun part of him that he got............ when he drank..  he is looking for that part of him again.... that doesnt drink,   and the other night I think he saw......that he could sit with guys and have fun, and there were guys out there... that werent gonna give him shit for not drinking....  he finally felt comfortable in this new skin he is tryin.  He finally felt like he didnt have to drink...... to laugh again..and have fun  to hang out with guys who actually got what he was trying to do...   he actually felt normal for a hour or two...  he felt like Russ again..  Does that make sense??