Single??...

I told Joey last night that I was done.  Done being angry all the time, done being snapped at, done feeling useless, done being ignored, done being blamed for everything, done being treated like this. Just....done.
He and Marlow were leaving for the weekend today and I told him that I would move my stuff into the guest room, since I can't afford to move out yet.  And I slept in the guest room last night.
I don't think he believes me. I don't know if I believe me!  I'm devestated and I feel liberated.  I'm terrified and I'm happy.  I want this so bad....but I don't want this so bad. 
I just can't do it anymore.  We have family photos lined up with a photographer next Saturday, and I told him we would go as a family....because even if we aren't together we will still be Marlow, Marlows mum and Marlows dad.  But I don't think I want to be Marlows mum and dad together anymore.
I have no idea if I'm classified as single or not because I have no idea if this is the road I really want to take.  I AM going to move my stuff into the guest room today or tomorrow, and I WILL be sleeping there for awhile.  But I don't know if I will move from that spare room into my own home or back into the shared bedroom.  I can't speak for the future, and it's so unsure that I'm on shaky ground.
I feel a multitude of things, and even if it's a relationship break in the same house.....maybe it's something we need. Or maybe it will turn out to be something I need. 
Who knows where next month will take me?