Silently Looking Forward

The silence in the house is unusual. It has allowed my heart to seek God with silent words of conversation. The peace and rest I have entered into was so surprising. I even find my alters quiet too. I’m just being. There is no confusion and no bad dreams Thank God! I think God is preparing my heart for something new. There is a level of fear in whether or not I can manage what he brings into my life. He often does not reveal things ahead of time, because He knows I will get overwhelmed and freaked out. I know He is the completer of good works and no matter how much I try I cannot thwart the plans He has for me. I just wish I had more confidence. I want to be able to look forward with assurance that I can do what he is calling me to do. I know he is famous for equipping the call more so than calling the equipped.So, the issue here is trust. Do I trust Him enough to carry this out through me? Honestly, I am not completely convinced, but what ever it is I will give my whole heart to and do my best with what He has given me then the rest is up to Him. I guess that’s going to be good enough. So, patiently and carefully I am looking forward.