Sick to My Stomach

Today I am feeling sick to my stomach. Preparing my books for my accountant and seeing all the gambling withdraws scares me. I don't relate to whom that person was that I became a few months ago. I stole from myself and my future. Thank god I stopped and will get back on track. Never again do I want to set foot in a casino. Such a stinky life I lead. Breathing in all that cigarette smoke to escape the pain I was feeling in my life. I was so lonely. Looking forward to dealing with things and moving forward. Happy that I have this site to blog on and having these words leave my body feels right. I know I can get a grip on this illness and beat it. I will be and am strong!