Sick Day

I am at home sick today. My step-mother and step-brother keep coming and going but they leave me alone when I come into the room. I find myself really lonely. My dad hasn't gotten home yet and he is the only one that I want to talk to, and he is the only one that will take care of me. I want him to make his homemade chicken noodle soup because it's made with love. Yesterday I saw my psychologist and it was good to talk to her. We talked some about the effects of my parents divorce and then we talked about my suicidal thoughts and obsessions. They are there still and I am working on burning them away. I was scheduled to see my psychiatrist this afternoon but since I was sick I had to cancel and now I can't see her for another month, she is very popular. I didn't sleep at all last night I remember getting into bed and I just staid there and remember hearing my dad in the master bathroom getting ready for the day at 5:30am. I have a test in psychology on Tuesday and I really need to study. I am going to try to get into it.